I remember when I first got into Recovery everybody doubted me and said I wouldn’t make it. They said that as soon as my 30 days were over, I’ll be back out there in the streets when I went into treatment into a detox center they offered me every kind of drug that was as a substitute. I’d declined every single one of them and handled my business on my own and I kept telling the nurses that if I was going to do this, I was gonna do it by myself without any of their drugs helping me along the way every day I woke up I fucked my demons. I battled my health. I battled my addiction. I battled my family, and I still stayed headstrong. My first job was Popeyes chicken after a couple of rehabs that I had went to Popeyes was the longest that I stayed at when I left Popeyes. I was training for manager position, but I left because my demons wouldn’t allow me to leave my life as a result of that. I moved home to be around my family because I kept saying my family is the only one that’s gonna be able to help me out of this mess because I don’t know who this monster is keep hunting me and I kept saying that, but it was funny to that gentleman. It made him feel like he was a man because I didn’t know who he was and for him to be called a monster was top-tier because he never defended itself at all then I moved home and then I started beginning to be abuse sexually mentally emotionally. This man would do things like set up cameras in my hotel rooms and everything else just so he can watch me so I would hear him say things that we’re gonna try to drive me crazy thank God that I had already been through most of the magic tricks that he had to give me including being molested as a child so when he brought that to me as an adult already panned out four years later and four months later, I still have people doubting me on my recovery and on my life for some reason, they can’t get it through the heads that we do recover and they want me to understand everything about them being in the dark place that they are? They’re still in their addictions. I can’t see how a woman or a man could constantly defy destroy someone’s life and I don’t understand how you feel no remorse towards it, but for me to stand up for myself makes me the villain so they lie about what they see or who I am today and because of my addiction, most people believe it unable to come down and they want to catch a view, but why would you wanna come down and watch somebody throw their lives away in addiction when most people don’t even make it out, I’m strong today because of my general Faith walk. God allowed me to walk. He allowed me to wake up every day and talk, and he allowed me to be the woman that he wanted me to be from the beginning. I owe my Recovery to nobody, but God so and for that God knows I’m so grateful to have him lead my life because if I allow myself to let any family members or anybody else come in, I would definitely fail by the gracious case of God that I stand here, humble as I can be 10 toes Daugn still fighting for my recovery in my life you guys oughta come and join me on my podcast I’m gonna start back up really soon. I’ve been allowing someone else’s demons dictate my path because he wanted me to fail so bad, but I am going to get back on my feet and start back to grinder Recovery and block him out and push him to the backside because people need to learn about addiction. They need to know what Recovery is. They need to know what living is and I’m willing to take that leap and let them learn. I will be posting my podcast soon. I’ll be on the lookout for it. 
