The first time I felt it

Recovery
#1

Last night was the first time since quitting a week ago I genuinely had the urge to pour myself a drink to “make this easier”. I tried to sit down and finish my portfolio for a major career opportunity that I need to want to wake up every morning. It felt like highschool again sitting here with a claw clip on my lips avoiding a laptop.

But I didn’t pour a drink. It took five hours and a migraine but I did it. It’s not what I would’ve hoped but I did it and I did it sober and I’m proud of myself.

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#2

That's great progress. Keep after your goals. You got this.

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#3

Congrats! You should definitely feel proud

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#4

That is a huge accomplishment! Be proud of yourself. It will get easier, in time. Great job!

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#5

Heck yes! Proud of you, pal.

#6

Keep reaching out

#7

In my experience each time I've gotten through something that I used to drink while doing I got a little stronger. Now days it doesn't even cross my mind much to drink

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#8

It was all probably due to the hair clip. I would get a patent on that idea. You're probably on to something. LOL

I'm glad you're sober. And I hope you're going to meetings and not trying to do this on your own. The 12 steps saved me, and I'm coming up on 9 years in July.

Sobriety is definitely the easier, softer way.

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#9

I have a suggestion: The next time that happens, call someone else in recovery and “tell on yourself.” You might be surprised how much easier it’ll be. AND you’ll be helping the person you call…

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#10

I’m fully with John on this. I got through a LOT of early struggles by calling up another drunk in the program and telling them “Hey, guess what REALLY stupid idea my brain is trying to tell me is perfectly reasonable right now?” Spoiler alert, they were always able to guess correctly.

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#11

Exactly, that's how it works! :+1:

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#12

I think the fact you were able to use the tools we have been taught was awesome!

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#13

The photo made me smile btw :laughing:

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#14

Hēll yeah!! That’s a huge win.

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#15

Well, it does get better but you have to walk it out

#16

Thank you!!!

#17

Hahaha thank you!!

#18

I’m going to my first meeting hopefully this weekend! I don’t really have any sober buds right now admittedly

#19

That’s a big step. I know how that goes. One day at a time. You’ve got this.

#20

You will; you have a good sense of humor.