The last few days I have been waking up with complete anxiety and cravings to use. Ive been on edge and been waking up from really vivid dreams (which i normally dont suffer from) I have caught a cold which may have something to do with it but i just dont know what to do! I feel like i cant talk to anyone around me...i feel really alone. I dont like the city im in. And ive really been wanting to get back to creating my own life. In the city i came from. Which would mean disappointing my family here. But idk. This happens every time. I come here to get clean and sober and try to get back to where i want to be and it never ends well. Like i know they say you cant heal in the same place that made you sick..and like thats where im at right now. At moms. And i have alot of resentment towards her. For reasons i never wish upon anyone 
i was abused for my entire childhood. And it was just brushed under the rug like it was nothing. The dude is dead. And still nothing has ever been talked about. Ive never gotten justice for what he did to me. And idk. Idk. I just reallly dont know. Just struggling alot these past couple days..
Pray to your higher power of your own understanding. Try and do mediation and say the serenity prayer many times as you can. It will pass just have faith
I can relate. That’s a lot to carry, especially feeling an injustice. It makes it even harder, but it also makes your sobriety even more important. You choosing to stay sober through all you’ve been through means something. One of your biggest weapons against the past is forgiveness or letting go, because you matter more. It’s not easy, but sobriety is so worth it.
Please don’t give up. You deserve peace and freedom, and you’re allowed to build it far away from the pain you’re feeling. Keep talking and reaching out. We’re here for you.
Sometimes the struggle is more of a struggle
Deep breaths....I understand at least the living situation being a trigger for sure. Pray and know you CAN do it and reach out to meetings as you can.
My body is still adjusting to being clean. Some days are good and some days just down right suck. Like someone said I just keep praying to my HP for relief and that does help tremendously. Also being around others and not getting in my head. Praying for you 
don’t pick up no matter how your feeing. It will pass
I know the feeling I’ve been a few days clean feel like I can’t breathe sometimes. I hate the feeling. But hopefully it gets better.
Online woman’s meeting? AA or other? Therapist?
Chin down, eyes forward, guard up, keep pressing forward.
There are things we can’t change. Nothing gets better going backwards…
I still only look at the next 24 hours. What can I do next to feel so & be better.
I don’t know your exact pain, but I do know pain. I am sorry you’re struggling and I hope and pray the darkness parts quickly!