6 years ago while deep in the throes of active addiction I dated the only person I have ever truly loved. Due to my incredibly erratic behavior he ended up dumping after about six months and I was devastated, which lead to more drinking. We remained great friends until I quit my job that we both worked and we started seeing less of each other and talking less. He was thrilled when I got sober and we had a lot of really deep conversations about my behavior after I made my amends. Well I just found out that he has moved in with his girlfriend and “can’t” talk to me anymore. I’m genuinely happy for him that he found someone who makes him happy, but I’m also so sad about it and mad at myself that my behavior is what ruined our relationship.
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Hey girl I know this is hella late but you can always shoot me a text. Hope everything is well
i’m sorry you’re going through this. i’m in a similar position-all of my biggest mistakes (romantic and professional) have come from substance abuse and i can never take them back. the hardest but best lesson for me, is that it’s best to understand that there is nothing you can do except stay/get better for the next great thing. always happy to chat if you want 