I want to wish all parents that care for givers naturally ; mothers , a happy late mother's day. 2026. Let me tell you something about myself. I surpassed my expectations to completely destroy everything good in my life. I wanted to use again yesterday , so so bad. A ":yet "" for some of you, I hope after i share it will be none of you !!!! IS TO LOSE YOUR CHILDREN . I lost my beautiful children 11 years ago. 2014 almost died my kidneys three percent only. Icu 5 days. So why on earth would I want to use crack, vodka 
heroin ? Thank you Lord i have a good church. So the wolves / walls closing in on me , i'm glad I went. 
i have seven months in twenty five days from ANY mind altering chemicals in my system.\nTrust me, it's not that easy.\nOne day at a time. Addicts are extremely selfish people aren't we ? To make a long story short, 
i ate a 
chocolate bar & drank a 7up full of sugar. You see , I have a diabetic insulin dependent. No, I didn't want a death wish.I just wanted to get through the day!!! So I have been sick in bed.\nThrew the other candy , bar in the trash i gave my girlfriend next door the liter of soda. I'm in the middle stages of cirrhosis of my liver as well. I lied too many times that I had gotten cleaned up. My kids are now in their middle 30's . I lost their younger sister at age 10 to the system CPS. In 2012. They will never read this , but I would love them to know how much .Mommie misses them 
. If I could take it all back\n I probably wouldn't because I was in such denial that I had AF g problem !! You know, everyone else was the problem ?! 
everybody in houston i'm in South Carolina.\n And to try really hard\n Well, last time to be able to see you. You see how I know this for a fact , pay attention here. God had blessed 3 times over 
and still today , I would die for them. Let you see , he gave them to me to 
protect.\nAnd advice them, teach as well. 14 years, I did just that. They're so-called dad.\nDivorced me for another Lori !!!]( i love to say that) am I bitter that she is the only maternal grandmother that they know ??? Yes. Word... I had to tell you the whole story.I never done before. I fell back into the abyss and a nervous breakdown. 
i did not use on Mother's Day. Any drugs but hurt my poor body w sugar. 
my boyfriend, Al of whom I met on this app.he is always wonderful to me.strength. He told me last night "" welcome.To no matter what it takes club"". We are never alone. I Pray for them daily. AMEN
Honest, open-minded, and willing.
These are the basic spiritual principles. The HOW of our program. From this... Everything else is possible. Lauren you are pouring your guts out, the pain, the suffering, the urges to use. This my dear friend will keep you clean. Yes ... The no matter what club! Just for today...I won't use ... No matter what! The club is open for membership. The only requirement is... A desire to stop using and find a new way to live.
Good share Lauren God bless you
Thank you for your Candor and support. I do tell it like it is.\n To get everything out from this miserable and cunning. Addiction. Please hinder my warnings can I try to get everything out of the closet for all of you. Who think they have one just one more.in them 
!!! Play the tape all the way through.\nPlease take care of yourselves. I vow, just for today that I will love myself.Be kind to myself. I do my darndest.\nTo reach out to others. The newcomer needs to know\nThat we will have addicted personalities until the day we die@!! Accept that fact.\nI don't deny any more. That is all, be free and have peace , hope and faith. I know it's hard , but you CAN do it. 
love lauren marston
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it blows my mind laying here , reading and relating to so many wonderful people ! 
i've been on probably 3 hours. Take the time to read everyone's profile. I am at peace now.
Thank you all my new friends for reading my trurh
Hi Lauren! Thank you for getting it out! Things you have been carrying with people who don’t have sympathy for you, but empathy real life experiences with addiction and reasons 100s of reasons to use but we keep making different decisions everyday and leaning on others in recovery spaces to help us along with our high powers and other sober friends!
Hi Lauren! I tried to send you a message the app is having some kind of glitch. I will power the phone down and start it again.