I don't understand how everyone can tell me to don't do it for me to do for everyone else but when I'm really going through it I am by myself. The most judgemental people is in this process of AA. My mind heart and soul just can't take it. I refuse to use that include ppl. I'm really trying to stay clean no just be clean. But it is soooo much one can deal with and because I'm going through it alone when it is over I'm going to continue to be alone
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I know this feeling so very well! But just stay strong and just take it one day at a time, you got this!
You are not alone!! If you need to talk, feel free to reach out. You are already doing amazing at almost 3 months. Every AA group is different, so doing it for yourself is ok. We all have our own reasoning for doing this. Keep up the good work, and once again, feel free to reach out.
Hi Porshia, my experience is that I had to do it for myself and everything else will fall where I should. I quit drinking and popping pills for my wife and to save my job. At 8 months sober in was miserable and a wreck. I slowly started to focus on recovery for myself. The first thing that went was my ‘good’ job. The next was my marriage. At that point I leaned on my faith and my AA family. Around 15 months is where a fog lifted and thing’s really began to change in my life. I am in a better place then I have been in years. I hate the saying ‘it takes time’ but it is true. Hang in there and believe in yourself. Keep putting one foot in front of the other.
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I don't understand that either. We need focus on getting ourselves where we want to be before we worry about anyone else...Maybe tell them to chill!