The simple truth about the path of sobriety AND walking into the calling that Lord God has sat before you is this.....IT'S HARD!! It is the hardest thing that I have ever done in my life. Allowing the Holy Spirit to do that amazing work that surpasses any human understanding. It's hard! Sacrifice of self. Acceptance of what, where, and how it's all done. But when you step outside of that flesh, when you allow the Spirit to just take over these things get a little easier by the day. ESPECIALLY if you are as prideful and stubborn as this man can be. But everyday for the last 384 days I have held onto the prayer that no matter how hard my flesh cries out, Lord, have your way with me. And each day I go to bed knowing that I did the very best that I could possibly do for that day and that that is an acceptable sacrifice before my Father.
As of yesterday, I my Addiction Recovery Program was over. And something made sense to me last night that I had heard all through the program from various people....this is where the testimony starts. In programs we focus so hard on giving of our testimony. But that....TO ME....is a false pride. Because the program is the digging down to the rock. Sorting through that junk that (for 42 years) had built up. That was the time to surrender and allow the process to happen. The true testimony starts TODAY, February 18, 2025. Because now I have to stand on that rock, live out all those lessons contained in those 7 notebooks, make darn sure my hands are glued to that plowshare and that I am not looking back.....and now the strongest lesson Jesus gave us in Matther 28, the 12th step in the 12 steps, has to be walked and NEVER talked....Go therefore to all the nations (not go out and just search but anytime that the opportunity is presented minister and in the meantime walk it out and let them see the Christ in you without being a Bible Thumper because the bible thumping pushes more away than it pulls in) and make disciples and baptize in the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit......and having had the spiritual awakening we take the message to other addicts.
"Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad and EASY to travel is the path that leads the way to destruction and eternal loss, and there are MANY who enter through it. But small is the gate and narrow and DIFFICULT to travel is the path that leads the way to [everlasting] life, and there are few who find it. [Deut 30:19; Jer 21:8]" - Matthew 7:13-14