The story of tonight

Well, I didn't want to spend NYE alone at home so I picked up these goodies (my favorites) and headed over to a friend's house for a party.

But as the night progressed and everyone there was drinking, I just felt less and less comfortable in my skin. So, I ducked out early saying that I was going to see a girl to get my NYE kiss (that was a lie).

And now here I am home alone at 730 and caffeinated, which I don't necessarily want to be because I would like to go sleep in a couple hours. Ugh, having a social life while maintaining sobriety is so difficult for me! It's frustrating.

I don't know how people continue to hang out and be around the party atmosphere while being sober. It just doesn't work for me at all. And making actual live in-person sober friends where I live has proven futile. So, for me personally... Sobriety has always = loneliness.

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I agree. Im sorry that it has been tough to find like minded people. My situation is opposite. Abundance. And our town is small about 50,000 people, but our recovery is thriving. I spent time with recovery family at jujitsu, then again line dancing, and yet again at Waffle House to break in the new year all with different recovery family. But we spend almost every day together in community in one way or another.

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I would keep looking and seeking. Recovery can be like this.

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Population where I live is about 10-15k. Definitely small town living and almost everyone here drinks. But I hear you... Guess I'll just keep trying.

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You got any bigger city’s withen 30 minutes? Could be worth the drive.