June 29th will be 3 years since my last drink 21 months of that I spent in prison (state prison) went for felony DUI…. since that time I’ve come home and seemingly got my life back on track. I got a 6 figure job, a beautiful gf whom I live with, hick I went from a bus pass to a Porsche in 6 months. You would think I’d be happy right but the truth is I’m absolutely miserable. I feel like I’m living a lie and I’m just doing this because it’s what I’m supposed to do. I can’t help but wonder what life will be like if I just said F it and quit my job and went back to dating strippers and doing only fans. It just doesn’t seem worth it to be honest. I feel like everyone around me is enjoying life and I’m just here being miserable. Yesterday I was at my gfs aunts house they are rich AF (we were dog sitting) this place has an indoor pool, a gym, a sauna, a hot tub etc a year ago I lived in a box it’s all just so overwhelming. I feel like a fraud everywhere I go because I’m a convicted felon and I’m just supposed to live normal and act like I just didn’t get out of prison then on top of that Everyone around me drinks. How do y’all do it long term. Like honestly I’m just so lost
