I’m having strong craving even though I’m still out on bail and trying to get back up before it’s too late. I find the thought come frequently and it’s only lingering a little longer at a time. I come back to the meetings, and readings from the big book as well as speak my honest thoughts and feelings. This scares me. I follow with an immediate prayer and I hope it’ll pass. My family needs me and I need them. Technically they really don’t .. but this is something that keeps me strong the most. I’m not sure if I should rethink things and the way I still hold onto the reliance I have on them or if I should become more self involved; which I’m not sure how to do because I failed every time I did that but maybe I was doing something wrong.
