The thing and the answer
I’ve prayed to God for 7 months asking him the answers and those answers came in the form of a thing - that thing put me on the brink of a relapse . The devil was calling my name and I had a chance to go back but I choose the way of light . And now I know I wasn’t missing much . I’m glad God opened my eyes to this . I literally had a spiritual battle within myself . It was intense . I know why I’ve chosen the path of light and I know why God doesn’t always reveal our answers right away - sometimes we wait . I’m very grateful I opened my eyes . This month and into the next I’m eternally grateful I can keep my clean time because it’s every thing to me . As I go forward I walk with dignity and Grace knowing that sometimes things will arise and I need to be strong and just let go . The feeling is liberating nothing compares . We do have a choice . Choose life - choose light .
I’ve learned that they are grey areas in recovery - mine is one of them . It’s a personal choice with you and God only you know your journey .
Takes immense strength and courage to look within and trust and believe in what you find. Congratulations Phoneix! 
