The Wreckage

Mental Health
#1

I’ve hit that point in my journey where the initial excitement subsides and I now have an uncomfortably clear view of all of the wreckage that my active addiction caused - ruined relationships, self love, friendships, jobs, opportunities… the list goes on and on.

The past two weeks have been an absolute whirlwind of emotions. But, I’m honestly really glad I’m getting gut punched by these feelings. They are a healthy reminder of why this new way of life is so important and so, so much better. They’re also a reminder of the list of amends I have to make in the near future.

Here’s to an amazing network of newfound sobriety buddies, a much more manageable life, actually working the program, and my favorite thinking/meditation spot (bathtub, shameless dude here).

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#2

“More will be revealed”
We all arrive there at different times. It is a good reminder as you said, to continue the step work.

It immediately takes me to this quote from the Big Book. Pg 82
“Don’t see anything the matter here Ma. Ain’t it grand the wind stopped blowin?”

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#3

You are not alone. It will get better. It takes time. I came home from the dark side and am putting my puzzle together. Wishing you happiness

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#4

I thought I hated baths up until I got sober. lol Very thoughtful and truthful words. Great job working your sobriety, and being fully present in everything around you.

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#5

Same. Turns out I love them and they are super helpful to reconnect and thank. Thanks a ton, lots of work ahead but worth every ounce of effort.

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#6

Thank you my friend. Definitely traversing the dark side as we speak. What a brutal journey!

#7

I'm there too my friend. Being present comes with a lot of guilt and remorse. Use that feeling to you benefit.
Making amends with folks does help. Don't expect forgiveness, just do it because it's the right thing.
My list is so long I may never atone for all that I've done. For that I try to forgive myself.

#8

Jeremy we have likely all been there, I know I have. I've spent months in morbid reflection of all the stupid and terrible things I did while drunk. I work the program everyday and am simply grateful I don't do those things anymore now that I'm sober. Time and working the steps will help tremendously though