There is no guarantee that being/staying clean means life gets better. Although when life shows up today and uneasy feelings arise causing dis-ease, confusion and uncertainty, I am grateful that the tools I have/get to use today give me the ability to slow down and process the situation with a clear head and my H.P.'s will, not mine. Just for today, Im giving myself a much needed break. 
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Thank you for sharing this! I needed to hear this today.
I go through a mental loop at times where I think “I am sober, why have my circumstances, and situations not improved?” As if sobriety is a fix all to all of my problems. Of course sobriety has helped me many problems, just not all of them. Sometimes I can lose sight of this.
Thoughts like these can be unsettling and I’ll end up on the hamster wheel of my thoughts saying “why did I even bother getting sober?”
If it wasn’t for the skills and coping mechanisms I’ve learned throughout my sobriety journey these thoughts would easily provoke me into a relapse like they have in my past attempts of recovery.
You’re 100% correct. It is my Higher Powers will, not mine that helps me get through this process.
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At least if you were to fall, you know you did your best. I don't see that for you though if you're blessing people with posts like this.