I will be three years sober in August. I am very proud of my sobriety and I plan on keeping it for the rest of my life.
But these past few months I've been struggling with a heavy case of depression and felt this was an appropriate place to express myself.
I feel as though I am under siege by guilt and loneliness. Usually, I can pull myself out of these funks and continue my day-to-day activities but these have been the longest streak in years. I'm stuck at my dead-end job where I am surrounded by alcohol (the bain of my existence), I've been single for the most of my sobriety and the loneliness is beginning to tighten its grip on me, and my self-improvement has seized to a halt.
As a man, I find it hard to express myself occasionally, especially on this matter but I understand the importance of doing so. I am only posting this because I refuse to suffer in silence and continue this streak of self-pity. I must acknowledge my feelings and face them head-on. .
I appreciate you taking the time to read this, and even though it may not seem significant to you, it is to me.
Thankyou.