There is this part of me that after bouts of sobriety, where I will think about drinking and the feeling takes me over until I do. THIS is the part of me I don’t trust. I believe this is one of the biggest obstacles I have. I had two years of sobriety with AA then relapsed and haven’t had more than a couple of months since then. That was in March of 2020. I hate the feeling of hopelessness. And in case ANYONE ever doubts sobriety, it is NOT greener on the other side, it’s painful!! I pray God takes the desire away from me for good.
