The part that isnt talked about alot in meeting is before it gets better (in my opinion) is the hardest part, the part where you dont sleep for months due to nightmares and using dreams, the parts where 20+ years of wreckage in the thing you called life needs repair. So before it gets better theres a he!! of a struggle for most. Just remember that struggle is there so you have a reason to not ever relive that sh!t and go back out. With out the struggle personally speaking my chance for derailment would be to high. But i will attest if you keep pushing through, then after that it gets so much better, im still nowhere where i want to be, but slowly but surely the blessings are starting to pile up due to persistence and putting in the leg work like a MF, everyone early into recovery remember, keep your heads up, keep all 10 toes down, sobriety isnt the easiest thing to get, but once you get you head up outta that hole ,its such a better way of life. Anyone struggling today ???? Yall got this shizzzz...... one day at a time
