They say you gotta want it…

Recovery
#1

I drink and do drugs. A lot. Like way to much.

My real down fall is that it hasn’t really fucked my life up all that much.

I don’t get hang overs, I don’t miss work, I haven’t gotten in trouble with the law.

But, I know I’m killing myself incrementally. I know it distracts me from being the father and husband I’d like be.

I have a 9 year old boy. So beautiful. I also have a wife that is 13 years younger than me. Also, so wonderful.

I’m in my 40s. My parents and grandparents (all addicts) died in their 50s & 60s

My lady has those awesome Japanese genes- her family makes it into their 90s

And when my (not so) lil boy gets out of highschool, I’ll be 55. The same age my mom died.

I don’t want to leave them any earlier than I could.

So, here I am.

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#2

Well, do you want it?

#3

Adam I was the same way, drank and did drugs. Always did my thing at work and didn’t get in trouble with the law. I’m also in my 40s but you’re right you are killing your self slowly and if you’re on here it’s because you want change. I hope you find it in you to quit. Go to a couple of AA meetings and just sit and listen.

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#4

Don't miss out!

#5

That’s really great advice👍

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#6

Best of luck to ya Adam.. :blush:literally one minute at a time​:v:

#7

Hang in there, it takes discipline, courage, and faith!! The question to ask self. What do you truly want Drugs Alcohol substances. Addiction is no joke. I use to say the same thing A functional addict. Sick!!! Here I am almost 4 yrs clean and sober. Try it I’m praying for you :pray::blush::purple_heart:

#8

As someone who walked your path, I can guarantee you WILL spiral the drain! You begin and eventually you WILL LOSE, sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly… the promise: jails, institutions and death. 
Try an IOP (intensive outpatient treatment program) it will help you begin your journey. You may think that I’m exaggerating, but I’m not! So far you’ve been lucky, that too will run out. You have to make the decision for YOU, then the healing can begin. Easy, not so much. There is tons of support. Ultimately, it’s your choice. Dedicate yourself to your sobriety as completely as you have to getting lit. Do it for YOU and LIVE for your family. With 6976 days sober, I can tell you it works.

#9

Good question. I want it today. I hope to want it next week. Addiction is tricky though.

This isn’t my first day one. Even went 6 months a few years ago