Besides having some minor withdrawals and some insane cravings, things have been getting a little better in my life with 26 days clean. My drinking got so out of control that I lost my job two months ago luckily I had enough savings to survive these past couple months but today I just got a full-time offer at $22 an hour with the opportunity to further my education, which would be paid from the company. Although I’m still kind of going through a struggle after a decade of drinking, I’m trying to look on the bright side of things. Hope everyone is doing well and don’t hesitate to message me if you need someone to talk to. 
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I’m so happy for you!! I was going to comment on your previous post about the 30 day mark, because I recently relapsed on day 36 so I do understand how hard it is but I regret it so much so stay strong!!! Having a job and a purpose and new opportunities are going to help big time too. If ever you find yourself struggling too too much, consider asking your doctor if you have one about going on naltrexone. I recently started it and it does help with blocking cravings. But so happy things are looking up for you! 
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Thank you! And yeah, it seems once I get past the worst of the physical withdrawals. My brain just torment me whether it’s out of boredom or something upsets me. My first thought is to drink so every day is a constant battle, but I know what time it will get easier
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When you got mouth tone, did they give you the shot or the pill? I was on the pill about a year ago and I stayed sober for nine months, but even being on that pill the cravings after all those months.
Our brains are literally our own worst enemy, I totally get it! It’s not fair at all. And the withdrawals from alcohol are the absolute worst, are you just white knuckling it? Because mine were so bad a couple times, I had to actually wean myself off of alcohol little by little because I don’t think I would’ve survived cold turkey. And the last time I detoxed in a hospital. I’m currently on the pill though and it’s kind of new, but I do think I’m going to switch to the shot just so I don’t have to worry about taking it every day. But really?? You still got cravings with the pill?
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Yeah, alcohol withdrawals are horrible last September. I was probably only 16 hours without a drink and I ended up in the ICU for six days detoxing and that still wasn’t enough to get it through my thick school because a couple months later I was drinking again this time I went to my family doctor and he put me on a controlled script of basically how they detox you with either Librium or Ativan as needed. 
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I was on now naltrxone for about 2 to 3 months and the cravings came back for me. They said something about upping the dose but before they got a chance to do that, I caved and went back to drinking this past year. It’s been like a month or two sober a month of drinking then a month sober and so on. I’m really hoping it sticks this time
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I get it though, I did the same thing. I put myself in the icu and then got out and still drank again. Like how do we not learn??? 
That sucks that the cravings came back for you though, you really sound like you’re in the exact same boat as me because I just keep saying that I hope it sticks this time too. My relapses keep escalating, I don’t even think I’d survive another one. When you drank on the naltrexone after the cravings came back though, didn’t it just block the alcohol or did you still feel it?
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I actually put myself in the ICU from withdrawals last September and was pretty much on my deathbed and what did my dumb self do…. I was back to drinking within a couple weeks of being released. I even spent 30 days in rehab and six days after I got home I relapsed. I’m not a dumb person, but my brain is ridiculous with this substance. When I was on that pill, I didn’t take it for one day and I drank and I definitely got drunk but from what I’ve heard that drug is more effective for opioid usage than it is alcohol like it can help crave curving for alcohol, but if you drink, you’re gonna feel it, it’s not gonna make you sick like if you were on it and did opioids 
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That’s so scary because I’ve had some horrible withdrawal symptoms that I just fought through at home but I remember I couldn’t even stand unless I took like at least half a shot and I had to keep alcohol in my system until I weaned it out little by little and got stronger. I tried rehab too, but only made it through the detox process and I just couldn’t anymore. And yeah neither one of us are dumb, alcohol is dumb!!!!! Haha. It’s not fair that it’s the hardest one to quit, hardest one to come off of, and also the most available and most celebrated. It makes it so hard. I wonder if the shot will be any different as far as longevity or strength in blocking cravings. How long have you been fighting the addiction?
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Definitely scary stuff, especially when I was sitting in a bed in the emergency room and two doctors came in insanely serious telling me I had to go to the ICU right now. How much will you drink in a day if you don’t mind me asking? I’m really happy to hear that you’ve been able to stay sober. It is definitely one of the hardest things we will ever do in our life. I hate how socially acceptable it is because I went to the gym this morning and on my right hand side was a liquor store and on my left was a grocery store that sold beer and wine so no matter where I go it’s pushed in my face.
I started drinking daily shortly after turning 21 but I was in a band with guys that were a little older so by 17 or 18 I was drinking three or four times a week but it didn’t really take off until I could buy everything myself 
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Yeah it is scary! It’s so scary and it’s crazy how fast the fear wears off and the craving and determination to get more comes on. Gosh, it started out at probably 5-8 shots of tequila throughout the day - I was basically just self medicating anxiety. Which funny enough stemmed from an un-alcohol related ICU stint I did in 2016. It was like a random heart issue that I almost died from and totally didn’t see coming but I survived then just started poisoning myself anyway! But one day I just couldn’t stop after a few shots and it just turned into bottles at a time and I would drink until I couldn’t physically pour anything in my mouth anymore. And I’m only 92 pounds so the amount that I’m able to drink also doesn’t really make sense but nonetheless, nothing stops me. How about you? How much did you have to drink for your withdrawal symptoms to land you in the icu?
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I’m so glad to hear that you were able to get past that. At my heaviest, I was drinking a fifth and like 6pk of high % beers and maybe a couple of those airplane bottles that they sell at the checkout like grocery stores do with candy you’re already at the store buying a big bottle and then they’re like hey do you wanna buy couple small ones? Which I did lol. 
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I laugh now but it’s pretty sad
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Thank you! There are quite a few things I should not have gotten past but literally just by the grace of God. And you really just have to laugh sometimes! There’s nothing else to do anymore haha. I used to walk into the liquor store and they’d just immediately put two of the liter bottles of tequila on the counter with a big smile 
I always kept the mini bottles in my purse haha. And also hidden around the house because I used to have panic attacks all the time and a shot would just end it in seconds so I’d have them in every room so I could grab one wherever the panic hit lol. Geez it sounds really sad when I actually put things like this in black and white haha.
Oh!! I’m glad you survived and made it past the icu too! It was just once right?