I keep telling myself nothing good comes after a night of me drinking. I never wake up saying “what a great night, that was fun”….rather when I do wake up I fly out of bed in a panic, first thing is check all the history in my phone, worried what did I do! Check calls I won’t remember making and then having to call them sober and ask what did I say, what did I do. Texts that are obnoxious. Heaven forbid I got onto social media, hurry up and delete activity. Then it’s time to check the house, check the garbage, how much did I drink, did I eat? And then ask if I was drinking with someone, was I a happy drunk or sad drunk. I try to remember this as I am fighting to not open that bottle of wine every night for the last few days. I am so tired. Feels better to get this out. I have been a lurker on this app for 3 years and have never had the confidence to post. Thank you for allowing me the space to reach out.
I’m going through the same thing with wine, everyday I say I’m going to do better and stop and then find myself binging all the time. But we got this we are strong !
Thank you so much for your support! Yes we got this! And I hear you! Stay strong Ash.
The first year is the hardest honestly, I pry cried throu my first year the whole time lol. It gets easier after thou I promise
You too tiff! I’m wishing you all the success with your journey 
Thank you Amanda!
The fact that you have a confidence today that you didn’t before is a testament to the progress you’re making.
Soon, you’ll be a version of you that will appreciate the efforts you’re making for yourself today. Rooting for you!
Yeah, it sounds like maybe your ready to put down the shovel and stop digging,,, we’re all here to help and we know the feelings and we help each other through them,, that’s the miracle of recovery, we don’t do it alone… reach out anytime..
Stay strong 
Welcome Tiffany! Good to hear you reaching out for help, cause we can't do this alone. Maybe get yourself to a meeting and at least listen to others that you'll definitely relate to, share what this is all about. You can do this! We're all in this together!
My goodness that hits close to home. I have lived that life as well. I am very grateful that I don’t have to live that way today. There is a solution. I found it in AA. I recommend you go to a meeting today. It changed my life. Life in sobriety is amazing. Welcome
Peaks and valleys are part of life. It can be difficult at first or when “life gets lifey”. The only thing harder than recovery is addiction. I often don’t want to go to a meeting and that’s the meeting I most need to attend. If it’s hard now the opposite is bound to follow. It’s the law of the universe. We claim progress not perfection so simply do what you can and you may soon find that our higher power does most of the “heavy lifting”. It’s not a sprint but a marathon. Let the group support you until then. 
A problem shared is halved. A joy shared is doubled. You took care of yourself with that share. And I hope you like pleasant surprises because you are in store for more than a few.
How are you doing today Tiffany ?
This is the insanity of our disease….. great post Tiffany 
Great post, brings me straight back to the insanity of my use. I need that and I need to know that there are many of us that have the same stories. We can a do recover
Tha ks for opening up, you're not alone. The thing that can set you free is realizing that there isn't any benefit to 
ng alcohol. It's an illusion, and you'll have a better time without it once you realize that. Then, no scramble also!
Hi Connie! Thank you so much for asking. I am doing so much better, the support is amazing and I have gotten some great tips on fighting the cravings! How are you doing? Here’s to staying strong!!!
Thank you so much Bob! I did finally get the courage to attend a Zoom AA meeting. So helpful! The outreach is amazing!
Yusuf, Matt, Tony, Luis, Brian, Joshua thank you all so much for your support and wise words! Reading your comments really have helped me so much! Here’s to YOU!
Get a sober network immediately. Please.