I'm trying.... It's been a deeply traumatic, AWFUL WEEK! It is at least almost over? I still am alive (Trying to put it in a sensitive way for anyone this may effect.... ) I was "hurt" by someone this week and had a couple teeth knocked out... I'm grateful im alive... Not JUST that I am lucky I made it out of that "situation" with my life and I then ALMOST tried to end things.....I'm gonna keep trying to find help. Do what I HAVE to, to make money to survive and pray soon I can get my teeth fixed/ find a good job/friends... I'm grateful for the little fight I left... The ONE friend I have who actually cares but, is dealing with so much I wish I could help.... She is gone but I'm grateful for all the love my mom gave me when she was here and her/my/son and best friends who passed may not be here but, at least I got to be a part of their lives... Lastly I'm grateful for this app and that no matter how little there is always some hope.... Miracles occur all the time... Oh and sorry to keep being a downer but, I'm 4 years sober next month! I'm really disappointed I haven't accomplished much in that time but, maybe I can finally get real help this year and hopefully write something A LOT better/happier soon! I'm trying to get my self worth back after decades of Abu.... So I'm grateful I'm still here right now even though a lot of times it's hard to be..... Grateful to have somewhere to get some of this pain out.... Sorry again for the depressing post if anyone even sees this.... I'm trying!
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