Don't know if you are interested but MJ the CEO of the app has a meeting tonight on zoom. It is just folks from loosid. It might help where you are. Many are in early sobriety and a few long timers that may really be able to help.
I'm sure we all get like that at times. But feelings pass they aren't meant to stick with us for long periods of time they are usually temporary. So just breathe journal or find one way you can think outside of your self and help someone else out. Make a list of things you are grateful for it may sound stupid but it's actually helpful to make and then keep with uou to look back at when you are going through these feelings. Read a book about recovery or a recovery story in the na or aa books to know you are not alone. We all go through this we just have to be willing to do the work. Talk to our sponsors work the steps and stay on the right path. AND DONT PICK UP
I appreciate what you have to say very much it’s definitely the We in the program that helps me in times like that
Your words are very heartfelt
I may not always like being sober but the thought of picking up a drink Or the plan to get one my brain does not even comprehend that I feel incredibly protected and cared for which is why it’s so frustrating to have those feelings and get consumed by that thought process those times are getting farther apart
I hope what you’re doing always works as well for you hang onto that