This isn't ok. Where's all the happiness and love and shit I was promised?

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#1

I'm going back. I've been sober a bit now and ever since I found out I was being lied to and ran around on behind my back.... I've just wanted to kill myself. I'm bored. I have zero interests at all nothing sounds pleasing, I just don't want to do anything at all. I have basically no friends and the one person I use to be able to talk to m had a falling out. So... nobody to turn to. No desire to be here. And I cant go through another holiday season alone and homeless. Not sober anyway

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#2

Suicide Hotline: 800-273-8255

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#3

I saw a post on here that said "my worst day sober is better than my best day high." You need to speak that and know it.

Pick up yourself and embrace everything sobriety has to offer.

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#4

Giving into the HYPE of life is going to make your future harder!!! Ask yourself HAVE I BEEN through harder shit and survived it...answer YES....have I done anything really hard SOBER YES I HAVE BUT I FORGOT HOW TO COPE ANYMORE! I have a disease thats telling me I am weak and it's REAL MESSED UP I KNOW BUT THE DISEASE HAS BEEN LYKNG TO U....GIVE ALL THE MADNESS TO GOD TAKE IN ALL THE HELP U CAN....YOU ARE WORTHY OF RECOVERY DONT LET UR DISEASE WIN TODAY....CHECK IT OUT IF U CAN GET THROUGH THIS SHIT WITHOUT PICKING UP YOU WILL BE STRONGER THE NEXT TIME LIFE HAPPENS AND MAYBE FIND YOURSELF ANGRY BUT NOT AT YOUR RECOVERY U R MAD THAT STAYING SOBER IS HARD...FEELING THE PAIN N GETTING ON THE OTHER SIDE OF IT WILL BRING U ONE STEP CLOSER TO LIFE U DESERVE TO LIVE

#5

Tyler I believe You do want to be here and You do want help or You would not have spent the few minutes composing this statement of anger and denial. Just reach out and someone will help You through this, a higher power does not need to be God, it can Be anything that points You in the right direction!!

#6

Don't believe the lies that your addiction tells you. You have people out here willing to help you. Help is out there just reach out and take it, call someone at 800-273-8255 We love you buddy, it will get better. Sometimes the promises don't manifest as soon as we would like. Don't give up on yourself!

#7

Taylor, join AA Alcoholics Anonymous!
It’s helped me get my life back on track! Get a sponsor work the steps.
You can do this! I believe in you! I’m here for you!

#8

Instead of focusing on fighting the old put your focus on building the new. The world is beautiful it doesn’t have to be dark. If you persist one step past the point of giving up everything will change.

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#9

I was just there last week, I wanted to be done, please call the hotline, join AA

#10

Aa . Org. Meetings