I know i’m doing good because i’ll be one month sober tomorrow, and that’s the longest i’ve gone in probably a few years!!
Unfortunately i’ve damaged a lot of my relationships and missed out on a lot of vital opportunities for my growth.
Today, i can’t help but feel overwhelmed with the feeling of guilt and grief from having missed out on so much, for continuing to miss out on life as we speak because i’m in my process of healing and catching up on what i’ve slacked so much on. i’m taking it one day at a time, trusting that a slow process is inevitable. I am allowing myself to cry when i need to and to be gentle on myself, because it can be easy to feel so low that it’s too difficult to move at all.
happy to still be here 
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Congrats on one month!
I know what you mean, I have been going through similar feelings lately. Like feeling overwhelmed by the amount of things I need to relearn, how much I don't know about myself. Sucks.