WTH? I have 'taken breaks' from drinking before, (Not great progress, but the longest was 6 weeks) and it wasn't like this.
I keep crying, a LOT. I messged my son to tell him of my decision to give up alcohol and when he texted back, even before I picked up the phone, I knew it was him and burst into breathless, gasping sobs!
It almost feels like grieving. Is it because I am facing truth? Is it that I am saying goodbye to "my buddy" (alcohol) for good this time?
Anyone else felt this?
I have told my husband, my son, ans my nephew. Working up to more.
This is totally normal! I was speaking with someone the other day and he told me it was like his best friend who he loved and hated was dying. It’s okay to grieve losing a part of your life, but you’ll start to see alcohol was never your friend, yes, it brought comfort, but as soon as we sober up, all our problems came right back, and with a vengeance! Get a big book, find a meeting, and get plugged in- you will find so much joy in this journey. You got this!
118 days without drinking after 40 years everyday! It's being so proud but constant anxiety depression I totally understand.
Say goodbye for good to your fake friend (alcohol). Look at it like a friend who causes you nothing but pain and misery and loves to see you suffer. That’s no friend/buddy. In my book that friend/buddy could go f*#k himself.
It's normal to grieve that part of you no longer existing. It does not mean you need to give up everything that makes you who you are, only the alcohol and poor decision making. 7 months sober and life has done a complete 180 degrees. Hang on!