This will be a long read but I have to post it because every one who is struggling with addiction can relate. “ I’m your disease “ I hate meetings, I hate the higher power, I hate anyone who has a spiritual program. To all who come in contact with me, I wish you death, and suffering! Allow me to introduce myself, I am the disease of addiction. I’m cunning, baffling, and powerful. THAT’S ME!!! I have killed millions, and I am pleased. I love to catch you with the element of surprise, I love pretending I’m your friend, and lover. Haven’t I given you comfort, or have I not? Wasn’t I there when you were lonely? When you wanted to die, didn’t you call me? Wasn’t I there for you? I love to make you happy, I love to make you cry. Better yet, I love when I make you so numb, you can neither hurt, nor cry, you can’t feel anything at all. This is true glory. I will give you true gratification and all I ask of you is long term suffering. I’ve been there for you always, when things were going right in your life, and you invited me back in. You said you didn’t deserve these things, and I was the only one who would agree with you. Together we were able to destroy all the good things in your life. People don’t take me seriously. They take strokes, heart attacks, and even diabetes seriously. Fools that they are, they don’t know that without my help, these things would not be made possible. I am such a hated disease, and yet I do not come uninvited, you choose to have me. So many have chosen me over reality, and peace. More than you hate, I hate all of you who has a 12 step program. Your program, your meetings, your higher power all weaken me and I can’t function in the manner I am accustomed to. Now I must lie here quietly. You don’t see me, but I’m growing BIGGER than ever. When you only exist I may live. When you live, I only exist. But I am here, until we meet again. I wish you death, and suffering F%*k you!
Signed,
YOUR DISEASE OF ADDICTION!!!!
Please don’t let addiction win, we’re all in this together. Don’t be afraid to reach out for help. Your worth it, you deserve to be happy.
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It so true. It can make us believe those lies. Until one day it gets so bad. You make the decision to look the other way to more healthier road. That lead you to the 12 steps. He’ll get in there all-right, but difference is you have alliance with your higher power, the group that cannot be broken. Basically your not alone and have a support system.
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