Thought about Using

Thought of using tonight. After 2 years 7 months. I didn’t. Going through a difficult breakup period, and I know this is just my disease wanting me to change how I feel. It feels like such a waste of my last 2 years. Everything I’ve invested, all the time spent, it all feels pointless. Plus, now I have the fear creeping back in. Fear of not finding someone again, fear of not being worthy of love. I need to restore my faith in my HP. Just want to get that out of the old echo chamber so it’s out there in the open.

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It may help to connect with other sober people right now, and shake up your routine a bit so you don’t have as many triggers. Stay focused on your why!

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Honesty like that tells me you still have a lot of faith left in you. I get the fear. Been dealing with it myself. But this too shall pass.

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