I just realized the gravity of the weight of my past and the pain. I used food to cope (restricting, binging/ purging) and now I’m taking recovery seriously. After coming back from Switzerland in a theology program for 3 months…. I realized a lot, but my daily choice to stay sober back in the US of controlling food, drinking, and smoking weed is vital to have a better life. My family is not supportive of anything with recovery because they are wealthy alcoholics…. They know I’m an awful drinker and I’m a different person. I don’t understand why I react to alcohol the way I do. I may never know why it is poison to me, but finding joy and peace in the present moment is key. Practicing mindfulness and meditating is key.
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I can definitely relate to food as a coping mechanism, it feels like when I’m sober I still have to struggle with that. I’m sorry your family is not supportive. Sometimes people don’t realize their priorities are messed up. I just left a relationship for the same reason. Good luck to you on staying sober and if you have any tips on food control I’d love to hear them.
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Don't worry about those who do not support you. You do what is best for you.
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Alcohol is a poison to everyone. Some more than others but there is nothing good about it for me.
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You should read Quit Like a Woman
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Yes I practice that on the daily everyday every morning! It’s so helpful!
This fight is yours alone. But you will have a community of people here on the same journey to support you! Welcome!
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Welcome to a wonderful world of support and help if you ask for it.
Yep! I hear this!
You're on a good site to receive support, ur family sounds like mine. But we're our own person and what we do is for us not for them...
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I am also surrounded by wealthy people who drink everyday and a lot. Guess the thing is to decide what you want to choose in your life vs. what is “given”. If it makes any difference the wealthiest person I know doesn’t drink and she is supercool, Uber stylish and down to earth and self deprecating. She’s awesome.
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Sounds like a good woman to emulate!
Samantha,
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Lots of us here were terrible drinkers which is why, of course we landed here. Booze simply isn’t fit some of us. That friggen simple. Just sometimes takes time to figure that out. Sorry about your family. No cool. Get good sober people around you. This place is a start. 
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Hey Darya! I’ve received primarily eating disorder treatment so I’m always here to help.
Thank you Steve
Thank you for the encouragement
Thank you Scott
I relate to how you said you’ll never know why it’s poison to you. I feel the same way. No matter how much I learn or research it just doesn’t make sense. You’re doing the right thing by staying sober.
We really are just alike in this nature. Stay strong and blessed. Day 3 for me on hopefully my last round. Let's make it stick!!!!!