I was apart of the hustle culture, working crazy hours, always anxious, always questioning myself, always on and never stopping. The only way I relaxed was with my addictions. Since getting help, I have quit that job and lived a minimal existence and I have been lucky to say that my desire to use as also been minimal. I feel lucky.
Well these past few weeks I have started a new project and have been working tons. Consecutive 12 hour days, on my feet, most days forgetting to fuel my body. I have noticed my mind falling into old habits. The temptation to drink and use has never been stronger. My ability to control my emotions and sooth my mind has been more then difficult.
Hungry, angry, lonely, tired. I have felt all these things and I was warned that is when a relapse can happen. I see that now. I feel that now.
I have not done anything I shouldn’t but I feel like if I were to continue to do what I was doing I would certainly wear myself down to the point that I did. So I guess just a friendly reminder that we all need to get sleep, feed our bodies with good food and make time friends. I know I have a lot more work to do but I don’t want to make it harder on myself.
Do you best out there people and we all deserve to be happy.
Thanks for listening
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