Angel….. I left a 13 year domestic violent marriage with two young children when I got sober 30 years ago. I knew I could not stay sober in that relationship. I had enough pain and surrendered.
The Big Book states….. “Job or no job, wife or no wife, we simply do not stop drinking as long as we place dependence upon other people before our dependence on God”. I was SO codependent.
Not only did I need total dependence on God but I needed to heal and I wanted to STOP the generational domestic violence in my family. My children deserved better.
My AA sponsor was very big into Alanon. At 18 months sober I was going to both programs most days of the week. Worked all 12 steps and read Alanon meditation books and literature. Learned how to set boundaries, detach with love, and keep the focus on me.
I had to stay out of a relationship to heal.
Now 30 years later, my 20 year marriage is so far away from my history of abuse. Both my adult children have been married over a decade with loving spouses and free from any type of abuse. God healed our family. Love doesn’t hurt.
I encourage you to put the work in for the rewards are life changing.