To day is a down day for me
I have to attend the home going of a relative that played a key part in my up bring tomorrow
And she left a legacy behind
That is too upset about it all to mange
Then it's a big day and I use to be so toxic wit these existence back in the day
That my health is having me to run raggady
And I don't like that I know from going to these things with others and my brother last time ect it can be a little overwhelming
But when feeling in doubt and everything ain't going in route
Just in the stillness of it all say the serenity prayer and it worked in other matter
It just may work in this one as well
But over all I don't wanna drink about it or nothing like that
Or don't wanna hurt no body or my self and with saying thy will not mine be done I feel better
Like the 3nd step prayer suggest
So thank you aa
For letting me to clean out my insides just check into a cyber meeting and it was helpful so I thought I would post some in getting free .
On my page !
Pray fa thee one in recovery that still suffers including me even tho it's been a while since I had that problem and as my only problem 
Oh and big ups to anybody celebrating anything in this month my condolences go to anyone going through a lost as well in this month and in different I hope we can dis agree without being dis agree able
That all this month ECT !
But I'm going to stay in today as much as possible !
Congrats on your sobriety Kevin! Pretty amazing how you are aware of your feelings today. Also amazing that you have a choice today. Keep making these good choices! You can get thru this. Thanks for sharing both your struggle and your strength!!
Thanks for your reply
I have had made it through all well and alive and since then my life have change wit people places and things with the new growth in time I m grateful that I was able to be present in time when my aunt peeps needed someone to step in and help send her off well and be there as a strength after that I been going to h & I functions and doing alot of work around the house and the tire shop and pretty much staying fit not bitting off more then I can chew lol
So thanks again for giving me a few lines of encouragement I found it help full and I say have a happy recovery new year 
