Today I woke up and my back breaks had me in extreme pain. I found out my grandpas cancer is spreading and his blood might be clotting. My wife’s child support papers came in after we agreed I would pay out of pocket. My sister is leaving with her one year old to live in a shelter, because she is afraid I might drink when I start healing. And when I went to go out to the garage for my important paperwork, I found my daughters clothes and toys boxed up too!! I have remained so optimistic through all of this, but I’m feeling the stress of it today. Please pray my strength. Cause this type of stress all at once, is where I have broken in the past.
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Hang in there Justin! Think about what happened the last time you drank…yes, your day sucked…. Thing about each thing that happened and formulate a response/action for each that you can. For grandpa, maybe spend more time with him, or call him. Go to a meeting or call your sponsor. You’ll get through this!
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Let good memories be just that become the knowledgeable patient kind strong man your daughter will need
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Just be patient my man, we are very young in sobriety. We will have to deal with the damage, brokenness, fear and distrust we have caused. It's going to take time and lots of it. Lots of perseverance and patient and hard work. Grit if you will. You got this bro. No matter what, do not pick up. Don't give in to the thing that has caused so much pain! I will for sure be praying for you, I will as soon as I hit this reply button! 
Don't know if you have faith in God but I do know I tend to forget there is another force trying to ruin me because he is jealous he has lost me to his adversary. He will do everything he can to F me up, sometimes subtle through whispers and sometimes right in my F'in face.
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