Sometimes I have to pray myself to sleep. I always wake up feeling better tho
I always have my photo of my dad in my living room so I can always think about what he hopes me to be after he passed. And I think your loved one will always want you to be strong and they'll always want you to know they'll root for you even if they're not there. They will always want the best for you. Stay strong for yourself, your kids and for your family 
It’s ok to be sad. It’s ok not to be okay sometimes. Allow that feeling, and let it go when it’s ready to go. You are doing great!
Thank you I felt that…I’m pushing to let it go, I built up a lot of pain to get thru it and now I have to let it go
Don’t push, don’t cling, just observe and be patient. You’ll feel better when you are ready. Nothing lasts, not the good things, nor the bad things. Just know you are not alone. Hugs 