I definitely understand and seeing a therapist. She tells me I have a lot of trauma from early childhood and I try to numb everything with alcohol.\n I have to figure out another way to better this\n I'm losing everything in my life living in hotel rooms once I had it all.Now I got a garbage bag with dirty clothes in it.I tell myself every day, how did I do this?Why is this happening to me?Why can't I beat this
I ask myself all the time, “how did I let it get this bad?” You can beat this. We all just have to figure out what works. I know it helps me to know that there are others out there that deeply understand the struggle.
Thanks for your reply! I’ve been through two 28 day inpatient treatment programs. One out patient program. I’ve been to AA (long enough to lead the group a few times.) I’ve had a sponsor and worked some of the steps. I didn’t complete all twelve. I escaped an extremely abusive relationship and lost my father (who was my best friend) to cancer…not excuses, but emotions I wasn’t equipped to deal with so I drank and continued to drink to escape and avoid. I appreciate knowing there are people out there that have been through the same struggles. Thankful for this group.
Do you believe in a higher power? Anything can be your higher power pick something someone AA a rock but make it something special to you and pray to that person, place, thingy everyday…. EVERYDAY! Then get your booty through the first 6 steps ASAP doesn’t need to be perfect then finish the last 6.
When your ready, start over and do each step slowly take each one very seriously (don’t worry about doing this right now) don’t forget we add to these steps the rest of our lives there is plenty of time to change your life.
it sounds like you have a lot of honest, experience and could be a great help to others like you that is the point of this program keeping us sober together
Its okay you tripped up now find a sponsor and move forward…
Im proud of you for making it a day!!! I’ve had hundreds of day ones and long for my next one
Ann, I’ve been where you are and I finally got off the nightmare roller coaster. How? I finally made my sobriety my number one priority in life and went to in person AA meetings every morning and night. Got a sponsor and did the 12 steps.
You never have to feel like you do ever again🙏. The choice is truly yours. I’m here if you want to talk
You can do it