Today is day 65 for me and it’s been a doozie , my grandmother had a massive stroke and was put on hospice , I’m so grateful I did get to the hospital and be with her for a few hours hold her hand and say goodbye. I’m struggling with some serious urges almost obsession . Im worried more bout when I get the call that she passed I’m awful handling grief .
One of the hardest things about sobriety is having to cope with emotions with nothing numbing you. Ask yourself this though, aren’t you happy you have a clear, lucid memory of your grandmother and not a blurry memory that includes her last memories of you being intoxicated? She got to see you sober. She got to see the real you!! Take an inventory, go to a meeting, reach out! You’ve got this!
Thank you I’m so grateful I could be there for her and my mom. And my sponsor is picking me up for a 11pm meeting .
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