Although I appear healthy, it feels like alcohol is slowly killing me. I dont know why I drink, but when I do, my stress levels (on my watch) skyrocket overnight. I have some medical conditions that have to be affected by this. I just want to stop. I’m over it!
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Penelope, I used to wake up every morning and ask God why do I do this to myself. I was so aggravated with myself, feeling poorly, hands shaking, wondering if I’d done something stupid or wrong the night before bc I couldn’t remember, etc… and then I’d do it all over again. I know it was affecting my health, physically and mentally. I got sick and tired of it so I made the choice to quit. It’s not been easy but I woke up this morning on sober day 109. Never thought I’d see that change in me. I’ve been to some meetings, have a therapist to help me. You sound like you’re there. Make the choice to quit and stick to it. You won’t regret it and you deserve a better, healthier life for yourself. I wish you the very best Penelope. You Can do this 
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Thank you. I am ready.
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Oh i’ve been there too! And Mindy described exactly how i felt too!
It’s wild how similar all our experiences of being hooked on alcohol, then how amazing it feels to quit and find each other for support! I highly recommend committing to going to AA meetings.
You will be amazed..
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@penelope273280
Yes, you do have a medical condition... You're allergic to the contents of Alcohol.
When you drink it make you do stupid stuff.
Let me ask you this. When you drink; can you only have one? When you do drink over a period of time does your life become unmanageable?
Do you believe that you have a drinking problem?
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I very rarely can only have one. Luckily (?), I will pass out/go to sleep before I do anything stupid or embarrassing. I haven’t blacked out in years. Therefore, it has been easy to pretend like I don’t have a problem. I’m basically a functioning alcoholic whose life has not become unmanageable except for the fact that I know alcohol is harming me physically. And Im sick and tired of it! I hate waking up again with the guilt of “Why did I do that? I told myself I wouldn’t finish off that bottle of wine!” I’ve worked hard to be healthy and then there is this, which works against all of my progress. I’m over it!
@penelope273280
It's yes or no
It's black or white
Are you or are you not.
Please think about me two questions.
Yeah if you're not an alcoholic and you don't think your life is an utter train wreck or unmanageable.... Then why are you here?
We can't fix you. The only person who can fix you is you.
Welcome