Today is my six months..I went to last house on the block na meeting that attend every week and got to see a couple old timers pick up there multiple year chip one 22 years other 18 it's the old timers like this that's helped me threw it not cause the amount of years but how they approach the new comer there's nothing suger coated and they are quick to call you on your bullshit one the best things they said when I came was taken the cotten out your ears and stick in your mouth will ask you if we won't to know how to get high so during my 90 in 90 I nevered shared just listen done my service work and worked the program..and made a real connection with my higher power cause as we know God is the only one who can take a bad situation turn it into a good situation without ever changing the situation.quiting the drugs and alcohol was the easy part it's the part that gets hard dealing with yourself but at some point before you know it it all has become easy you find yourself you give it to him and life becomes easy but thing is at my stage in sobriety that part may be easy but there hasn't been enough time to mend some of the broken relationships that I destroyed by choosing that lifestyle and me being gone paying my debt for that choice I know I can't fix relationships that have been destroyed for years in months I know I got to put in just as much work to fix them as I did to destroy them so at this moment I don't feel the joy you would think for being 6 months clean my mind is just turning can't relax tonight because I'm thinking of the work ahead not worried about just thinking about laying out my battle basically for the stage .I can say there are no burning desires tonight and I very rarely have them cause I work the program attend my meetings and just simply try to do better.. One day at a time a step at a time you will always get to where your suppose to go
Congrats on 6 months keep up the good work
Thank you for your honesty. Everyone's recovery looks different. Ive been in recovery for over 25 years, had a couple relapse along the way. My first couple years were the most challenging, not because I wanted to get high, but because I was going through growing pains. For the first time in my life I had to face the girl who needed to drink and drug in the first place. I had to show up to life with my old coping skills, old attitudes and old thinking patterns. As my higher power sculpted and shaped me it was painful at times. Happiness and joy were present, but fleeting at times. My early recovery was definitely difficult. I stuck it out, I trusted and believed it would get better. It did! Coming back from my relapses wasn't as awful as my first couple years. My relapse cost me relationships I'll never get back, a criminal record, jail time, lost a career, had to start fresh...the list goes on. The facts for me was, because I made it through my most challenging early years, I had the skills, knowledge, wisdom and experience to get through the new wreckage. Anyways hang in there, keep that great attitude. Joy will come as long as you stick and stay, NA has promises, they will materialize for you, in Gods time.
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