Today was a bit of a struggle. Sometimes I can be really mean to myself. I keep thinking about all the mistakes I've made in my past and how lonely I am. I should be proud of myself for how far I've come and focused on the future. Some days it is just really hard to do that.
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Don’t look back…. You’re not going that way.
Wishing you the peace and wholeness that you deserve 
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GET OUT YA D@MN HEAD... working the 12th step is the perfect cure. Put them shoes on and go and help another. Not only will you be out your head, you will feel better about yourself. Just for Today
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Idk what your spirituality is. As a Christian I believe Jesus died for my sins. By hanging on to sins of the past, it's like nailing him back up on the cross all over again. That's what helps me most.
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The meanest people to us can definitely be ourselves. Get out of your head and do something that makes you happy. Be more forgiving to yourself. Give yourself a break. You are an imperfect human. We all are!
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Ryan, all the mistakes we learned from, all the wrongs we made amends for and the experiences we have gained wisdom from empowers us to help others. So get happy and pay it forward! That’s love in action. The best high and no hangovers.
Have compassion for yourself & show yourself grace. I know that can be difficult so please look up Annie Grace!! She has a book called This Naked Mind & another called The Alcohol Experiment. She focuses on compassionate self talk & self forgiveness. She also co-wrote a book about nicotine for people trying to give up smoking. I downloaded her app on my iPhone This Naked Mind Companion app. Her patience, love, grace & compassion led programs work & it’s a wonderful supportive community. She also has a podcast
There's not a right way to feel. Thank you for sharing Ryan
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I hear ya pal. You and me both. But i need to focus on the serenity God has given me now and tomorrow. Past negativity and those involved, i cant open the door to again. Heck some of that caused me to drank
Thank you to everyone for the advice and kind words. It means a lot to know that others care about my mental state and sobriety. I really wanted to drink yesterday. Trying to discover who I am and what will actually make me happy is so draining emotionally. I'm scared I'll fail myself. I've always blamed my shortcomings and failures on my substance abuse. This time it falls on me. That is really scary. That being said I'm genuinely excited every morning I wake up. There are so many options life affords you when you are focused and willing. And I know eventually I will meet someone and I won't feel so alone in that regard. I just have to be patient and believe in myself and the goodness in the world.