Today, we lay to rest the individual who claimed to

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Today, we lay to rest the individual who claimed to be my "dad" ... I'm numb, I want to vomit, my anxiety is running a muck ... I will NOT DRINK!!

Today, I'm going to be around my family and they drink to excess.

Today, right now at 0337hrs, I'm numb. I've been saying the Lord's prayer, serenity prayer, 3rd & 7th step prayer over and over again.

I know and understand One Day At A Time, 30 minutes/seconds at a time, 15 minutes/seconds at a time ... I get it.

Father, I offer myself to thee.
Build me and do to me as thou wilt.
Take away my difficulties so that victory will bear witness to those that I help of thy power and way of life.
Remove from me the bondage of self that I may better do Thy will.

I WILL NOT DRINK TODAY!!!

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#2

Michael, thank you for sharing this today..

You make me feel less alone in what I've been going through

I've been dealing with grief while being in a not so conducive environment..

You have my prayers today🙏

My condolences on your loss..

And my biggest sympathies fir the environment.

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#3

@rob276720 It's good to know that we're in this together, my friend. Thank you for your support. I will keep you in my prayers

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#4

My condolences to you Michael. Grief is the strongest emotion in my opinion and fueled my alcoholism like throwing gas on a fire. Ride those emotions out, feel and release. Praying for you

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#5

@teresa199513 ... Thank you for your support.

#6

Praying for you during a hard time. Keep up the hard work of being greater than your weaknesses!

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#7

@joshua320699 Thank you

#8

You are so strong Michael and provide us with so much wisdom - I am here for you! :gift_heart:

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#9

Keep it up. Ask for help. It’s going to be ok.

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#10

That’s heavy. Sending you strength as you process all of this.

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#11

Thank you everyone for your support.

#12

You are talking to the one who can help god is listening remember that he knows what is happening he sees you hold on stay strong a drink won’t fix anything at all hold on to that faith

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#13

So sorry for your loss Michael. Grief is such a horribly painful roller-coaster ride. And yours is accompanied by many other triggers. Sending prayers for you and your family and asking God to be in your heart, in your mind and by your side to guide you through this incredibly difficult time. You are not alone, we are here and God is with you. Peace to you.

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#14

I’m sorry for your loss and your difficulties. You have shared so much recovery wisdom with us on a daily basis. You are an example of living a spiritual daily program of recovery. You have our love and support my brother. Thank you for your service, and showing us how to remain sober thru life’s ups and downs.

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#15

Listen to your breath when all else fails...feel your heart beat and know that these unsettling feelings and emotions will pass. Nothing is permanent.

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#16

Sorry for your loss!! Keep up the hard fight! You've got this!

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#17

My support to you in this difficult time

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#18

My condolences :pray:

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#19

Sendin you a reminder of how far you’ve come and how sobriety really is the way.

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