I go by the name Alabama Tony because I am proud to be from Alabama. On April 27, 2011, a devastating E-4 tornado hit my hometown of Tuscaloosa, destroying parts of it. Instead of helping out during the disaster, I was at the Tuscaloosa VA throwing a fit because I couldn’t get my prescription for morphine. Looking back, I realize how selfish and focused on my own needs I was that day. I was a qualified paramedic at the time and could have been a valuable asset in helping my community, but I was only thinking about myself and getting high. I still struggle to forgive myself for my actions on that day. Thanks to my support group and the 12 steps on Narcotics Anonymous, I have found a way to forgive myself and let go of the past. I will never forget how selfish I’ve been. Unfortunately, self centered and selfishness is a symptom of addiction. Thanks for letting me share. This has been the most difficult one to admit.
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Thanks for sharing this.
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Thanks for sharing Tony.
Forgiving and relearning to love myself took awhile for me. I can't go back and be there for my kids after their father died but I can stay sober and be emotionally available now
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