I wont lie, im pretty strong in my recovery but the whole fellowship, and coming together thing.... i get it , it helps. Everyones experiences are 1,000% different then the next persons. Me personally i have an extremely difficult time actually letting people into my life. Im one of the most loyal people thats ever been created, and as past experiences would prove everytime ive ever needed someone in my corner it was me against the world totally alone. I cant help but feel like that now. Im grinding this sobriety thing out, i hit what i thought was rockbottom 3 years ago and decided to downward spiral so much further that i didnt even know who i was 1 year ago. Im super greatful for the drive i have now. Do to all the resentments and guilt from the past i guess i carry them with me like its my own cross to bare. I can tell thats something I need to change right away, if not change maybe work on is the right annunciation.. thanks for letting me vent
Thanks for sharing. Honestly, it takes so much strength to open up, even when it feels like it’s you against the world. Your drive and self-awareness are huge, and you’re already recognizing what you want to change . Don’t let the guilt and resentments keep you from growing. Keep grinding, and don’t forget that even though it’s hard to let people in, there are ppl out there who get it and want to be in your corner.
Thank you for that. Fr