I had no problem admitting i was powerless over my addiction my emotions and behaviors i've known that for a long time, however admitting my life was unmanageable was difficult i just stopped managing things through my addiction it got to a point where all i managed was finding food a place to sleep and drugs. Everything else in my life was steadily declining but i could manage those things.
Step 2 by the belief that something higher than me could restore me to sanity was like a catch 22 by believing there was something that could direct my life and supress the urge to use it gave me the power not to just by believing that something else was in control other than me.
Step 3 there is a saying ive heard in A.A 3 frogs are on a log and one decides to jump off. How many frogs are on the log? 3. One made the decision but took no actions.
If i dont change the way i interact with my enviroment or change my behaviors i cant expect anything to change thats the definition of insanity i have to change what is familiar and become used to handling situations differently or else i will always achieve the same result.
