My mind is troubled, stormy, and dark, I did the best I could with the situation I was given. I’m sober for me, my past, present, and future self… and while I feel the pride of accomplishment, I also feel resentment, anguish, and hate. I wonder if one day I’ll wake up to a new feeling, a new revelation. I don’t think I’ll ever get the closure I needed in that moment, the answer to the question I’ll always have. What could have been is a waste of time, I know that now, I see that clearly, all I can do is be my best self for my family, my friends, and myself. This journey of self improvement is lonely, and cold, but I know I can’t ask anyone else to walk with me until I’ve reached my destination, but is it a destination? Or a realization of what has been is not what is to come.
