The last couple of days really sucked. I want to relapse because its the only coping skill that worked for feeling like this. But i cant find any🤦🏻♀️ guess thats probably a good thing..
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It is a good thing! Praying for you. It’s a struggle but you can do this🙏
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Hang in there you got this. You have a whole community behind you including me. Take care
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Keep pushing forward. You've gotten this far. Remember your are loved and you are worth it.
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Tiffany….. The first year of recovery is a roller coaster of emotions. Emotions that we have numbed for years. My sponsor told me not to act on feelings. Instead I needed to grab onto God’s hand and walk through them for This too shall pass.
Remember that our bottoms always get worse… jails, institutions or death.
Two questions I was asked when I got sober was, have you had enough pain and are you done drinking and drugging yet? If you answer yes to both questions, there is a Solution.
Here is what was suggested to me and I did the first year…..
•Ask for help
•Attend a meeting every day sometimes twice a day especially on holidays.
•Have a sponsor that walks the walk. ie) Actively working the steps, attends meetings on a regular and consistent basis and has a huge God presence in their life.
•Work the steps with a sponsor and meet together at least once a week.
•Read the literature…. Big Book, 12 n 12, meditation books such as the Daily Reflections and 24 hours a Day, One Day at a Time
•start and finish each day with prayer and meditation
•Service work…. Make coffee, wash tables, greet members, etc
Long term sobriety is available to each and everyone of us IF we do the work. Once you get started, do not stop. Ever. One day at a time.
Best wishes! 
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Gods the only reason I've made it this far. I don't even crave it. Im alone and I don't know how to meet people and can't tell if they are genuine or not so my DOC fills that void. I think I'll try to find a NA meeting to go to. Thank you
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Well I can say from experience that using/drinking just puts me in "LIMBO" The problem still exists and won't go away until I deal with it....I need my higher power to help so......keep reaching out to others and stay out of your head....
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I don't have anyone to reach out to
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You have a phone, USE IT!! Google online AA/NA meetings happening right now. Then share what you're going through. Once you do that, focus on what others like us have done to overcome it. I would highly recommend praying. Hit your knees and beg God to remove your mental obsession to use. At the end of the day, NOTHING in my life gets better if I pickup again. There is help out there, but none of us can force you to seek it out.
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Hey there
@tiffany250926 Don't do it! It's a trap. You have 3 months are you willing to toss it out the window.
Just remember you will pickup where you left off.
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Hi
Beautifully written!! I have heard, understood, and repeated these sentiments so many times. Everything that you said is exactly my experience. May God continue to keep and bless you! 
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I did exactly what you outlined and it’s been working for me for over 7 years,,, just gotta do the footwork…..
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Are you working the 12 steps with a sponsor?
There are tons of coping skills over here. Maybe we can learn some new skills.
I’m here if you want to talk
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I went to an NA meeting right after I posted this and I just got back home from the meeting today. I got a couple numbers from some girls in the group. So I'm working on it. Thank you for your support
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Well you do now!!
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I would like to get to know you ajjamison222@
You’re being open about it, that’s a huge step. Try to get busy. Any hobbies you like? What do you enjoy doing the most? Distraction helps! Hang in there!
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I just broke up with my boyfriend so that's what's kicking me in the a** right now