Hey there. I have compiled a lengthy list of triggers that pop up for me. It helps me tremendously to categorize my quote unknown feelings that I'm learning to feel, you feel me? LOL. I have to let go and let God handle everything I'm powerless and I hate that with a passion! I'm diabetic insulin dependent and because of I have an ulcer since August on the bottom of my left foot very painful neuropathy is taking over as well and I must rest. To make a long story short I went to an orthopedic surgeon and I'll be completely honest with you I went for five second opinions and they all agreed with the first one. No painkillers after possibly amputating my left big toe and or putting a plate and two screws in my left toe and shaving a good half inch off bone of a bunion! Because I am in recovery I was informed I would only receive Tylenol. I was not happy with that and looked elsewhere. I know they were right which am I just made I shouted out I'm not trying to get high I just don't want to feel that awful pain being laid up for 6 weeks after surgery! I was denied Services again for number five doctor today and I really wanted to hit a crack badly! Oh God knows what he's doing. Sorry so long but I found another trigger I had to write down today along with the rest of my Character defects LOL and that was not getting Lauren's way. I threw my phone against the wall instead! I played the tape all the way through. If I had used you probably would not hear from me again and I want to live badly. Thank you for letting me share. I share deep stuff because I hope I can help someone else?
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Lauren... Thank you for this. Now that you have your character defects listed write a letter of apology to God, yourself and the person who you have the biggest resentment towards. Mail them to me. Write on the envelope DO NOT OPENSHERRED UPON RECEIVING** and I'll just do that. I won't read the letter I'll just get it and shred it. I'll even video tape it for you.