Cooked and cleaned all day. Bf worked all day. I picked him up and we had dinner together at home. I gifted him something inexpensive after showing him what I wanted for Xmas and he went and bought it for me. After he told me to take back the $30 item he doesn't have a place to put it I said I would also return little more expensive item and took it off. He stormed out of the room said "arghhh you ruin everything"
Previous to this I was also trying to talk to him about us since we've had many problems over the yrs. It just seems he has been quiet lately and holding things back from me so I wanted to talk about us. There was no blaming involved.
Idk what to do just last wk he wanted me to move out and I had a recovery house lined up, stuff to move my things and it just feels like ...here I am again.
I don't want us to argue but he jumps to conclusions so much that everything is bad. He says I blame but he does too.
F@#K!!!!!!
I'm not trying to be a drama queen or whatever but 2 wks ago I would have drank over this and or cut myself and I had to get this out
Relationships are complicated. We alcoholics are moody little f***ers, as the late Robin Williams once said.
You said the man worked all day AND he brought you a present, so he can’t be all bad. Go apologize to him, for whatever he thinks you did.
You are right I have nothing else. I've been outside but going to go back in now
Remember you can’t change people places or things. You can only change ur self . As long as ur side of the street is clean you shouldn’t worry about someone or something else
Maybe it was too soon to start talking about this with him? It's like eggshells or broken glass. I can understand how I have hurt various the few close people I have in a logic(?) sense I just don't know how it feels 
I think a lot of times I think too much and over think things too much
Yeah it might be too early you’re right . Just know that you’re doing you’re best and that’s all we can do everyday .
Fixing things comes later… that’s why it is step 9. For right now, just don’t pick up. There is a ton of healing that needs to be done.. his and YOURS. We are an impulsive, moody, self defeating bunch. The best way to get through the his period is just be. Don’t try to fix, don’t apologize, don’t compensate… just be. You are on step 2… you have a journey ahead of you. Don’t get to far ahead. If you try to run, you will trip on a simple straw. Be gentle to yourself, it will all work out as it does.
We got over it just a little hiccup but I'm chicken little the sky is falling wen it's just cloudy for a minute