Ok...I have been drinking all my life and I quit for years at a time but I am totally isolated and I feel like I have no purpose or meaning. So, I am in a nihilistic mood for a while and I have been drinking more and more.
I don't like aa and all that stuff I have been through all that stuff and I was an aa cult member for 4 years but I am just isolated and lonely so I just want ppl to talk to and I would like to quit drinking again..
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Go to secular AA meetings. No cult needed.
Thanks for that but aa is secular officially...you know the we are agnostic chapter. They were very inclusive spiritually but if you slip up they give up on me and just hang me out to dry.
I've been a cosmic nihilist that stayed in a room for about a year and a half after a stroke. Nihilism is even tough to argue if you're in that mindset. What dug me out was finally going to a normal doc appt and getting my testosterone checked. I had drank for 15 years, gained 100 lbs, never exercised, ate soy stuff in attempt to be "healthy"- all these things contributed to my free testostere being just 200 ish at age 33, which is very low. As soon as I started (the skin gel first but they arent available now, then IM injections) to bring my testosterone up to normal the nihilism started going away and I actually had motivation to get out and about and eventually lose weight, exercise- all that good stuff. I don't know your age or habits but chronic alcoholics are prone to having low T , so check that out man ...could be life changing .
It's also familial and I have cousins younger than me on it as well ..btw
Thanks but I am terrified of doctors I have been to so many doctors that have misdiagnosed me since I was born and if I went they would definitely find all kinds of stuff wrong with me but I am also a customer to doctors