First went sober in Jan 2022 when I realized the pandemic drinking had turned into alcohol abuse disorder. I was always a party binge drinker. But the difference now was that drinking had started causing lots of problems, and I was drinking by myself due to boredom. I was never physically addicted to alcohol, but when I started drinking, I couldn’t stop until I blacked out. Went full sober for about 6 months and then convinced myself I could have the occasional drink. 6 months after that I am back, realizing I may never be able to enjoy a pint of beer again. Never enjoy my vacation or celebrate. While my friends and family can drink in moderation and have a good time, one drink for me turns into too many, then I suffer physically and mentally. So giving full abstinence a second go. Maybe this time it’ll stick. Anyone else have a similar experience? Would love to make some connections and find some support.
Get your a$$ in to as many AA meetings as you can. There is where you will make real, solid connections that will benefit you in your struggle.
I went through the same thing as you. I'm coming to realization I shouldn't even have one drink
I so understand where your coming from, Nice to know you came back. Find lots of meeting, get numbers, surround yourself around positive men/women. People who are solid in there program. Find a sponsor work the steps. When they suggested all these things to me I felt overwhelmed and said these people are crazy today I have almost 4 yrs. So I suggest one foot in front of the other, have faith that you can do this thing called Recovery Sobriety.. I’ll be praying for you. Remember stay focused and know you got this. You have a lot of people rooting you on. Good luck !!
Pankaj, that’s me in a nutshell …. We’re better off sober because we can’t just have one or two…. We love to get smashed… I never had a physical addiction either I just loved to party for every and any occasion
That is some real truth Ezra, thanks for sharing