Trying to get sober. Not feeling motivated. Using alcohol to cope with anxiety and changes.
Hey, and welcome. 
I used alcohol for those things, too — until I couldn’t anymore. The effort of lying to myself about whether or not I can handle (insert substance, I liked ‘em all) became too much. Old and tired over here.
Can you give yourself some credit for reaching out? It’s a brave and powerful thing to do.
Everyone’s path is different. My motivation changes all the time. What motivates you outside of the context of alcohol? Can you leverage that in this situation, too?