I decided to prove that I could drink alcohol 'responsibly' again, which goes against all logic. I mean I know that there is no reason whatsoever to put that poison in my body.
I guess I just got caught up in the culture of brunch and bloodyMarys and wanted to participate for stone reason, but man now I heel like garbage and have a driveway yo build..
I am reaffirming my decision to live alcohol free today.
Cunning baffling powerful...I've lost the "battle" due to my ego (lack of humility) more times than I can count. The war goes on ...learning experience! Give yrself major credit for a minor slip that didn't turn into days weeks or months!! We all fall short...it's how fast you get back up and moving forward again...yr doing GREAT ...KEEP GOING 
Thank you.
I look at any drink as my demise.. cause I play that tape, and remind myself what a slimy, stagnant, torment infested hellpit I had to drag myself up from. And know in my heart I run risk of falling in and never being able to climb back out!
Try committing to AA.
Who gives a fkn shït about patio brunch blöody Mary culture, dude? Buncha a$$holes thinking they are entitled to that shït. It does absolutely nothing to positive to your day.
You got this Josh. Hang in there. Do something different next time.
Also, why in the fück is the word blöody censored on this site??
Yeah man, you're right. Thank you.
I have to tell myself that all the time. I ride my bike around town and see all these people who are able to drink "normal " and it gives me a resentment. I try to keep in mind that just because I perceived people "drinking normally", doesn't mean that's true, probably alotbofnthem are alcoholics just like me, they just haven't admitted it yet.