Man i must say its gotta be the hardest thing i think ive ever tried to do. I have lived my life one way for 34 years and trying to change that has been cntd in comment
You lose all the friends you have you lose all respect from your family . You get to a point where you have no one. That's been the hardest part for me. To go from having people and my family at least expecting me out of me. That now I've tried to fix things no one is there no body wants to hear it. It's lonely, cold and exhausting feeling this way every day. But the way I was would have ended up killing me I gotta do it for my kids. I will not give up my sobriety. Being alone makes the small wins less valuable almost gives a feeling of " who cares" or "you got no one to share it with" breaks even the strongest people down
Hang in there my man